My boss was kind enough to drive me to my KU Med appt. today to find out what the cardio-thoracic surgeon wanted to do about my grapefruit in my lung. We listened to the Beatles on the way in... good omen.
Turns out, the grapefruit's almost gone. Perhaps it's now a grape. Anyhoo, the upshot is that the dreaded surgery that I've been scared to death about... no more. NO SURGERY!!! Complications from the pancreatitis can still arise at any given time, but at least there are no scheduled crises for the moment. I feel like I can make plans and goals that I have been putting off out of lethargy/fear/depression.
It was the best possible news... I feel like a sentence has been lifted. It was difficult to even think about the upcoming months thinking that was looming out there somewhere. Also, the fact that I've been eating (I only lost 1 pound this week!) is making me feel much better about life... less weakness is good! I'm still really tired, I think I just need extra sleep right now or else I've become a cat.
All I know is that I am very very grateful right now for a lot of things, but today I am just thrilled with this news.