Monday, November 14, 2005

Who IS that???

Halloween came and went without much fanfare from me... I did go out on Saturday night and stopped by the always happening loft party... People did not recognize me, and I wasn't even in costume.

Since then, I seem to have dropped a lot of extra water weight from my stomach and everywhere else, and I scare myself when I see myself in the mirror. I am down to 127 pounds. I think the last time I weighed that was when I was 14 or 15 years old.

SO I am eating well, finally. That liver thingy seems to have really helped. I think things are looking up... I keep saying that, I know. But if I don't then the occasional bad day just becomes overwhelming.

I've been terrible about keeping up with people and returning calls, so if I owe you a call or a note, I swear, it's on my list. I'm resolving to be much better this week.

The return of my appetite has meant a lot of weird cravings... some of them:
Warm Peach pie with flaky crust and vanilla ice cream
Biscuits and gravy
Thai spring rolls
Heather's strawberry salad with Red Rocket dressing

mmmmm....

Saturday was my 6 month anniversary of quitting drinking. Yippee!!
I haven't been to a meeting yet to officially celebrate that milestone, but I hope to make it to my favorite noon meeting tomorrow. I certainly haven't had any physical desire to imbibe, but there have been some depressing moments in which I wished for an "instant attitude adjustment". That's a tough one to deal with. Being in a mood that I don't like and having to pull myself out of it one way or another without outside help is so hard at times. That "*sigh* I need a drink" feeling that says... I just want to feel DIFFERENT than I do right at this moment.
I think I've successfully substituted napping as one of the things that I turn to when things suck. I don't know how mentally healthy that is, but I am sure that it's not hurting my body any, as it seems to need all the help it can get.

4 comments:

Rikki said...

Yeah for Kalli! Eating is good, sleeping is good. Smoking is bad. Drinking is bad. Need a spankin?
xoxo

RunLuluRun said...

You. Me. Clay's. Gravy. Hell, yeah!

gypsy said...

I'm inspired to buy a crockpot and use it. You can reap the benefits.

Love you love your show.

gb said...

You looked so BEAUTIFUL last night!! I'm so sorry for the brain lapse -- I blame mucho beer and bad manners on my part -- such a bad combination. You will soon receive lovely compensation in the form of back leather pants and meatloaf!!

xoxxxooxooxo

"I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time . Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult." --E.B. White