Who IS that???

Halloween came and went without much fanfare from me... I did go out on Saturday night and stopped by the always happening loft party... People did not recognize me, and I wasn't even in costume.

Since then, I seem to have dropped a lot of extra water weight from my stomach and everywhere else, and I scare myself when I see myself in the mirror. I am down to 127 pounds. I think the last time I weighed that was when I was 14 or 15 years old.

SO I am eating well, finally. That liver thingy seems to have really helped. I think things are looking up... I keep saying that, I know. But if I don't then the occasional bad day just becomes overwhelming.

I've been terrible about keeping up with people and returning calls, so if I owe you a call or a note, I swear, it's on my list. I'm resolving to be much better this week.

The return of my appetite has meant a lot of weird cravings... some of them:
Warm Peach pie with flaky crust and vanilla ice cream
Biscuits and gravy
Thai spring rolls
Heather's strawberry salad with Red Rocket dressing

mmmmm....

Saturday was my 6 month anniversary of quitting drinking. Yippee!!
I haven't been to a meeting yet to officially celebrate that milestone, but I hope to make it to my favorite noon meeting tomorrow. I certainly haven't had any physical desire to imbibe, but there have been some depressing moments in which I wished for an "instant attitude adjustment". That's a tough one to deal with. Being in a mood that I don't like and having to pull myself out of it one way or another without outside help is so hard at times. That "*sigh* I need a drink" feeling that says... I just want to feel DIFFERENT than I do right at this moment.
I think I've successfully substituted napping as one of the things that I turn to when things suck. I don't know how mentally healthy that is, but I am sure that it's not hurting my body any, as it seems to need all the help it can get.

I'm baaaaack...

Well, I seem to have forgotten how to post on here. It's been a pretty up and down month, with the past couple of weeks resulting in two different several day stays at KU Med again. Ick.

I had a catheter put into my liver bile duct, as it was narrowing and causing blockage. In a couple of weeks, they'll actually put a permanent stint in there to keep that blockage from happening again. I have been eating better, though, so maybe this catheter thing is helping.

Malnutrition remains the number one problem at this point as my protein levels are dangerously low. I NEVER DREAMED that eating when you don't want to eat or when food just doesn't taste good would be so damn hard. It kills me. Quite literally, they seem to think, actually.

So hopefully I am on the upswing again... still really skinny and kinda yucky looking, though.
I am knitting like crazy in preparation for the Bizarre Bazaar, which is the Saturday after Thanksgiving, by the way!!! If you can't wait that long for a fabulous hand knit Kalli Scarf, check out the ones I have on sale down at the Lawrence Arts Center gift shop.

Last night Becky hit a 6 point buck going 75 mph on Hiway 24 on her way home from her job in Topeka. How freaking scary is that??? Her car is totalled, but thank god she's okay. I know she's going to be needing some chiropractic care, she woke up sore and freaked out today. I am just grateful as hell that she's alright!

Ginger is here visiting for a few days, so I am taking advantage and asking for favorite foods to be cooked while she's here. Mmmm. Goulash.